Bad CreaturesI can see right through your tactics
I guess to you this is just practice
A pitied pawn who’s told the fact is
He’s used by a benevolent fascist
Take no aim but take all actions
Cutting corners and claiming factions
A piece of us fell apart
From love to loss to death to ashes
Hold me – No hope here
Knowing secrets you wish to share
You speak in chords and mumbled taunts
Perfect girl as my confidant
Hold me –Truth be clear
You’re going forward to nowhere
You weaken lords with humble wants
And starve them ‘til their faces gaunt
You and I are just bad creatures
On a journey for retribution
Misguided by our slighted hearts
Fueling our own alienation
Broken full moons and lace pieces
Spoken hush notes hides in matrices
Graphite confessions in folding creases
Half-righteous lesson mocked by Jesu
heartbreak_4I still wonder sometimes..
Did it ever cross your mind?
Or maybe you just didn't notice?
Or maybe you never cared..
Who knows now..
It's a little disappointing.
But then, maybe I was expecting it..
You never loved me, did you?
You called me lust.
Maybe that's okay.
I may have been your play date.
Just a fun little pet.
Cute Little One.
You called me that once..
Thinking back on it now, it was all for nothing..
Was I truly just a mat for you to walk on?
I gave you a baby..
We'd spent many nights together.
Under the same roof..
Beneath the same bed..
I gave myself to you.
In complete love.. At least I thought so..
It was something I'd never done before..
Then afterward, you would be angry with me..
Over... nothing really..
Sure.. it was nothing..
I started to feel.. separated..
People can change..
I called her Flower.
She was beautiful.
At least, I thought so..
Later on, we'd spend our days yelling back and forth.
..It was always loud.
I turned to dri
Dancing with ButterfliesShe was dancing with butterflies in a disorienting world. A chaotic expanse of a mind barely absent sent her soaring into the stars, unaware of the desolation left in an ongoing rampage. Reality was an illusion; a long forgotten memory and an old friend lost in the passing of time. Her grasp on sanity was a laughable hallucination; a deception of grandiose ideas and irrational behaviors from a reason abandoned. To her, everything was wonderful and magical, dancing amongst the butterflies of true madness.
consciousness_2the fan is going
the music is hopping around
Still, one can never be too careful...
People are different. It's not a big deal.
Maybe that's why..
I asked the moon who her lover was. She didn't answer. Which was fine at the time.
They say I'm crazy. It makes me laugh.
And I've been stuck in this room for months.
What are you thinking? I ask the mirror.. Surely, the mirror will answer me.. Surely.
Maybe I'm a girl.
Or a boy..
Or both.. Surely that's okay too though, right?
Actually, I may never know.
Never respond, or make a response of any kind..
You can hear it, right? The beeping. The machines, keeping me 'alive.'
I wander an endless ocean of thoughts and emotions.
My physical body trapped, so I walk with spiders. And the creatures of the night.
I'm not special though Nope. Definitely not.
I just live here...
Where is here? I ask, like a child..
But maybe I am a child?
Am I a child?
Or an adult?
Does that matter too? Surely, when I open my eyes one day, they'll let me know
skin deep - WARNING - beauty is false.. - J (real)This is real.
So I'm sharing it.
Because I wanted to.
It is graphic. But that's what makes it real, to me.
Anyway.. take care...
I love you..
Written by: J
Date: September 20, 2016
Time: 1:57 PM
beauty is only skin deep. someone said.
How very true those words are.
Deep enough to cut enough roses into two.
each petal representing a pain you've been through.
deep enough to cut a lie.
i'm not hungry. just dying for your beauty.
sleek. slim... photoSHOT
the bullet went through my aching heart.
after i was dumped by my date.
said he didn't want to be seen with the 'fat' girl.
that word again.
how I hate how it cringes on my very aching breath.
so hard to breathe.
looking in the stores.
of things you could eat.
"Sure... wait.. no.
We're so hung on appearance.
girls and guys (too)
because they weren't pretty enough.
or because they were different.
anxiety.. - romance anxiety, breath.. -JThis is about a boy who wants to find love.
But ultimately can't, because he has anxiety..
Hence the title..
You can like this if you want to.
I think I do. Though to me, reading it sounds like a horror novel...
Take care. And stay safe. I love you.
Written by: J
Date: October 1, 2016
Time: 5:44 PM
thanks.. take care..
But it wasnt meant to be..
Such a thing as love? Not worth the bother..
I wanted to tell you.
Let's face it. I'm not the most attractive boy in school.
Too skinny, I've thought to myself. (drowning)
Such a thing as perfect? Not really.
(You were close though..) (COUGHING)
Blood red doors.
Nice finish. First time inside?
You said the windows looked nice.
Don't call me beautiful. Don't call me beautiful!
...SNAP.. You said it...
Multiple vs. MPD, DID, DDNOSRogan: Hey Sneak. We're multiple, right?Multiple vs. MPD, DID, DDNOS by BaaingTree
Rogan: So, does that mean we must have Multiple Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, or Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified?
Sneak: Nope! Not at all!
Rogan: Care to elucidate on that?
Sneak: Sure! First of all, we flunk the diagnostic criteria for MPD or DID.
Rogan: *claps hands to face* Gasp! How can that be?
Sneak: Easy. To have DID or MPD, you don't just rent out your mental real estate. People have to take over control of the body, and you have to have trouble remembering important things. We fulfill the first and second parts, but our memory problems are pretty much negligible
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Beautiful - Christina Aguilera - www.youtube.com/watch?v=eAfyFT…
Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz - www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_SI2E…
Nothing to Lose - Billy Talent - www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGUw0u…
Adam's Song - Blink 182 - www.youtube.com/watch?v=2MRdtX…
This Time Imperfect - AFI - www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjC4bw…
Manic Street Preachers - From Despair to Where - www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7JTXZ…
Pink - Long way to Happy - www.youtube.com/watch?v=MMJwCS…
Sia - Breathe me - www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSH7fb…
Wreck of the Day - Anna Nalick
P!nk - F**kin' Perfect - www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocDlOD…
Marilyn Manson - The Nobodies
Röyksopp - What Else Is There? - www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLpkXt…
Goo Goo Dolls - I'm Still Here (www.youtube.com/watch?v=ba1UFP…)
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